Resolution

I’ve been too easily drawn to vulnerability, weakness, helplessness.

There’s nothing wrong in wanting to help someone. But to assume you have sufficient strength to make up for what they lack: discipline, focus, the capacity to cope with quotidian stresses and strains is a fatal mistake.

Doing that with Charles led to my own romantic Armageddon.

I have no idea if I’ll ever feel reciprocated romantic love again. But I surely hope that if I do it will be with someone with adequate inner resources.

I’m happy to provide a shoulder of support but should make sure the other person can provide the same for me.